It’s a huge step for me. Seriously H-U-G-E. But I did it. It may seem superfluous to many of you, but to me it’s lifting a burden off my shoulders. It’s helping me be more comfortable with me and to be content with what I have. It’s helping me to stop comparing myself to others, wishing I could be/have/make what others have.
What is this monumental, life-changing thing I did? {Drum roll please.} I deleted my Pinterest app off my phone. You just gasped, didn’t you? I told you it was huge, didn’t I?
Whew. I said I’d do it…and I did. Baby steps for this mama. But a step in the right direction. At least, for me.
In a world where I find myself wanting to feel complete and content, I often also found myself lost in the world of Pinterest, experiencing envy of others. Whether it is the cool way they decorate their houses, or the way they pull off that ultra-chic outfit, or the way working out has led them to toned arm muscles, or the level of organization they’re able to maintain in their lives, or the cute themed birthday parties for their little ones {do you see how this list could go on and on and on?!} … I perused Pinterest and sure, I’d pin all sorts of ideas. And, in the end, I’d look back and simply wish for something I don’t have.
And, honestly, that’s not how I want to live my life.
I want to be content with the blessings I’ve been given because I have enough. I want to be thankful for what I have and not wish for more. I want to be creative in my own way, and be proud of that creation – whether or not it compares to the latest and greatest Pinterest post. I want to be ok with being me.
If you visit me in my home, you won’t find handmade stained glass, or a beautifully made flower arrangement, or a self-knitted blanket. My pantry won’t have chalkboard tags as labels. My laundry room won’t have a chandelier, my laundry supplies won’t be organized into pretty baskets, and the walls won’t be painted a bright cheery color. I won’t serve you homemade muffins made from scratch using only organic ingredients. The centerpiece on my dining table isn’t going to be seasonally themed.
But, you will find a home filled with love and joy. You will find me, smiling and enjoying the fact that you came to visit. You will find a mom who’s learning to be an individual with value.
Maybe one day, I will return to the world of Pinterest, but for now I think I’ll just learn to be happy with the life I live, reminding myself how truly blessed I am to have what I have.
